We all have issues

You ever take a personal inventory of yourself? I’m not talking the easy one. You wake up, look at yourself in the morning point at your reflection and say; “Dude, you’re awesome.” Am I the only one who does this? I guess there are people who pick themselves apart and focus on the things that they either want to change or even suck at but I say life’s too short. People tell me I have all these great qualities yet I never sit in my favorite chair nursing my coffee and think about things that make me awesome. I just say I am because if I don’t the day goes all downhill.

When my wife threw me out I didn’t feel awesome. I actually felt like a huge failure yet at the same time I knew I couldn’t sit around and dwell on the why my marriage failed. I knew why so from there I just thought about how I can fix it. How exactly was I going to change? Well, like a lot of people I could think about it and suffer from the why me syndrome or I could actually make changes. Some of those changes were done out of necessity. It was a case of if I don’t do these things who will? The answer is no one and when you have your cup of coffee and you think about how you can make these changes without any intention of actually changing then why bother thinking about it?

If I was ever going to date I had to fix me. No therapist in the world was going to pick apart my brain because I didn’t need my brain picked. I knew what the problems were so instead of pointing fingers I accepted and moved on. The hardest thing was taking responsibility for myself. I was the boss. I was now responsible for everything and if I ever planned on dating again I would have to change my attitude a bit and not be so lazy. I’m talking about lazy with everything. My time, my attention everything.

My biggest challenge was more biblical and when I thought about myself and what I needed to really work on I was like; “There’s no way!” I need to work on grace, humility and above all else forgiveness. Those three things are truly my stumbling blocks and it’s something I struggle with everyday. I’ve adapted quite well to being single and I like being able to do what I want all the time but my attitude toward relationships in general make me come off as some kind of arrogant jerk. Do I meant to sound like that? Of course not. It just comes out that way due to those three things I need to work on.

When we were asked at work to list our strengths and weaknesses. I was baffled because I have never actually thought about that kind of thing. When I did my strengths my weaknesses all came back to grace, humility, and forgiveness. How exactly do you change that about yourself? It’s a process and I realized that it all started with one person. If I could show her those three things only then would I be ready to date. The humility is all on me but the other two start with her. If I can show her those two then maybe I can date.

Being single is awesome but I think I have to stop referring to it as awesome because women don’t like to hear or read things like that. When they do they see commitment issues and I got no problem committing as long as I don’t feel pressured or rushed. I just need to embrace my inner dude for a while and then maybe when I meet that hot nerd that I’m looking for then I’ll talk about having a girlfriend but until then I don’t care about women and won’t date because I need to have some dude time.


Boredom Can Be Dangerous

Let’s talk about Facebook for a minute. Somehow they are able to link your profile with ads that somehow cater to you. That sounds great but what if your interests are pretty off the wall? I have a really twisted sense of humor so in some of those sections I have off the wall stuff like Cheese whiz, head banging, and sleeping. Other than mattresses what other ads could it possibly come up with? If you’re a head banger what are the odds that you’ll see an ad on the right side of your screen advertising helmets? Since I put in religion I happened to see a lot of ads for Christian related things. Universities, books and recently dating sites. What? Wait, that’s a bit freaky. Dating sites? At first I kind of blew it off but then I was a bit bothered by that.

Facebook somehow thinks that because I’m single I’m lonely or spend my nights face down in a bowl of mint chocolate chip ice cream, or maybe watching the Notebook while sobbing like a high school girl at a Jonas Brothers Concert. I don’t drown my sorrows in ice cream and I’m not lonely but I thank Facebook for looking out for me. It’s awesome that they just assume that I want to date or glance to the right and say to myself; “Yay! There’s Christian single in my area.” I don’t do that. Never have. I happen to frown on dating and figure since I was with the same woman for almost eighteen years I deserve a break. I want to be a single guy so why would I jeopardize all of my progress by hooking up with a woman?

You know when you’re single and bored it’s not a good thing. You end up throwing tater tots at the dog, googling yourself and sometimes actually checking out one of those dating sites. I don’t do it because I’m lonely or have trouble meeting women. If I left my house for more than work or groceries I’m sure I could meet a woman but I choose to wait until hell freezes over before I date.

I checked out one of these dating sites and I was cracking up because they ask you to describe yourself and be honest. That’s the first problem. You can’t be honest because if you were then no one would want to date you and I also noticed that a lot of these chicks like to dance. I don’t dance and never have mostly because I hate pop music and you can’t really dance to the kind of music that I listen to. You can’t say certain things because you don’t want chicks to think you’re too smart. Most chicks find intelligent guys boring and some find them intimidating. When you fill out this thing you don’t want to say too much and I had half a mind to say that I’m looking for a girl who talks real good.

Then there’s the part where they ask you what you’re looking for and I was tempted to write in a drunk chick that likes to dance.  Also if you’re picky are you supposed to say one with all of her fingers and toes? Is it rude to just write in no fat chicks? Not that I mind fat chicks but I do find it interesting when you scroll through the pictures some of them are really blurry and it makes you wonder what are they hiding? Is there something they’re hiding?  What is it with the pictures taken in the dark? Again it makes you wonder.

I find it interesting that most people prefer to take their picture in the bathroom which I don’t understand. Two questions come to mind; (1) Are their bathrooms that rad that they have to take their picture there and; (2) What were they doing before they took the picture? I hope they at least washed their hands. Why is it most of these women look like strippers who’ve done a lot of drugs? I have no problem with strippers but what is it about posting a picture that makes you look like a stripper? Is that a quality guys are really looking for? As they’re compiling a list do they write; Has to have a sense of humor, great with kids and a stripper.

Maybe just maybe I want a respectable girl who keeps her clothes on and makes me laugh. Is that too much to ask for? I want a hot nerd. A chick that can actually carry a conversation and doesn’t feel threatened when I ask her if she wants to accompany me to the book store. I do feel a bit pressured to date mostly by the older peanut and my ex-wife. They don’t get that the only reason I signed up for this thing was due to boredom. I don’t believe you can find your soul mate on the internet. It’s impossible but who knows. Maybe I’ll find her and she won’t be a stalker or a serial killer. I don’t expect to actually get a date from this but at least I got a blog out of it. Still looking for a hot nerd. Any hot nerds reading this blog please comment, or friend me on Facebook.

A glimpse of Christ

God sent prophets a very clear and concise message. I am sending you a redeemer, someone who is going to save you all. If you read the Old Testament you’ll see another reason why God became flesh and came to earth. He did it this for a reason. A lot of times God would visit people that he favored but it was done in such a manner that it would strike fear into the hearts of those he visited. Burning bushes and what have you so God was suddenly able to visit his people, speak to them and spread his message without thunder and lightning and catching hillsides on fire. It was important to show his creation that there was redemption coming but it wasn’t going to be what they expected.

Deuteronomy 18:15-18 is a message to us telling us I will give them a prophet from among themselves, like you, and I will put my words in his mouth, and he will say to them whatever I give him orders to say. As the verses go on there you see that God is sending this prophet for what reason? Two reasons to give God a voice and to show people that what God is saying is important without all the fire and what not. they didn’t want to hear God’s voice anymore, it scared them.  They didn’t want to see the fire anymore because when God appeared to these people it was like a metal concert. You had flash pots, smoke and it scared them to death.

Psalms is another great book for Messianic prophecy. Sadly God didn’t send these prophets visions of a happy Jesus spreading love and joy to everyone. God knew that when Jesus arrived not everyone would accept him. God also knew that Christ would be rejected, scorned, and even ridiculed yet God sent him anyway. God’s love for us was so great that he sent us a prophet to die for us. Psalms 22 is an early glimpse of Christ’s death on the cross. God was sending us a prophet to not only teach us but to also die for us. That is powerful and what saddens me is that I’ve never realized that this was all about Jesus as he hung on the cross.

Imagine the pain and anguish he felt as he hung there. Blood pouring from his forehead, from the wounds that he had suffered as he was led to his death. Why did God send this vision? Was it to horrify us? Not at all I think it was to show  us that even though Christ would suffer for our sins the message of God was clear. I love you and I am sending my son to die so you don’t have to. Psalm 22 is about God suffering and praying. Even though these prophets would talk about these horrifying visions it didn’t change the way people viewed God.

Psalms 31:15 were David’s words spoken by Christ as he died to pay for our sins.  Psalm 69:21 is yet another prophecy of Christ suffering on the cross. It’s yet another glimpse of our Savior as he died. These snapshots give a glimpse of what was to come as well as to  warn us. Despite the hope of Christ’s arrival and what it meant the end result was one of anguish and suffering. One man nailed to a cross dying alone because he loved us. There is no greater love than the love that Christ showed us as he was led to that cross, and beaten almost to death and for what reason? So we might live eternally.

Isaiah is the most prophetic books on Christ’s arrival. I can go over all the verses but there are so many I’ll just list them and you can read them yourselves. It would take too long to speak on them and give a running commentary. Is 11:2  talks mainly about the spirit of God resting on Christ, it tells us that not only is Christ our redeemer but he is the spirit of God. We should pay attention to what Jesus is preaching and telling us because he is truly sent by God. Is 9:5-7  is an announcement that Jesus is coming. In the second half of Isiah 40-66 we are given prophecies of Christ. Some good, some not so good but the visions that God gave Isaiah were very important to us who need comfort and hope. Malachi 3:1 is a promising message of Christ’s arrival. God is sending a messenger to pave the way for God’s return. When will God return? It’s truly not for us to know.

There you have it. The announcement of God sending us someone who is going to teach us, to lead us and also to die for us. God wanted us to be prepared for his arrival, he wanted to be excited because in Christ we have an example of perfect love. Does it draw me closer to Jesus? How could it not? It gives me a deeper respect of God because he set all this in motion. You can easily deny Christ or even God but in the end why would you? No one is going to love us like that. Will our family die for us? What about our wives or girlfriends? I don’t think so.